Hey peeps,

Yeah..as what ah shan annouced..we 2 are finally free from what so call the "suspicious" and "tiring" job..haaa...from April 10 till now..about 2month we survived tgt with jan toking on the fone and we 2 walking here and there from this to another car parks everyday at different location..we are equaling capable as compared to carpark attendants .. muahaa..no more sweat and swear but too..no more companion of frens during work...life will be so boring once again..but still..looking forward for a new beginning..

and yeah..i am not jobless too..cos i have found a new job..a job at SPH's call centre...i wonder what the job will be like and what kind of calls and callers i will have to handle..haa...hope it will be fine and fun and not too boring till i fall aslp..no time to rest..immediately tml will be my first day at work...i hope everytin will be good and i will wake up on time so as not to be late..and...i hope the ppl there are good and frenly jus like u all..erm...pray hard...i dun wan to lunch alone : (

this new job will last me till Sept 6 which den aft another week on the Sept 13 i will be starting a new phrase of my life at Pulau Tekong (the bo tak island - named by sk2)..during this 3 months of working period...i tink i will be so so tired and sometin like back to attachment days sia..will be working mon-fri 9am - 6pm and sat 9am - 1pm..5.5days week..no life job..but still..pls feel free to date me aft my working hours..i will be free for u all de date de wor..haa..dun forget abt me k..haaa...9am work = wake up at 7.30 to prepare and travel to work...its so early u noe..i cant believe it..lesser slp for me again...so ppl..esp miss jeanie and adel and jan..pls feel free to give me morning calls k...i nid ur help desperately..lol..amy..during your morning shift u can also feel free to call me up k..haaa...will be so nice to hear all of u de nice voice in the morning..haaaa...

so now..my current plan is to work and save as much money as possible and looking forward for my birthdae (hint hint) haa and aft which Sept 6 - Sept 13 will be my enjoying period...i shall eat play and slp to the fullest..so ya...u all will be date by me wor..haa...these days may be u all de last few chance to see me that frequent..so pls "zhen xi"...haaa...oh ya..and i forget to mention abt my late nite running plan..shall start running for 30mins per day starting from June 1st to prepare for the "scary" army life..hope i can say it and do it sia...and also shld start goin to gym and start doing push up and sit up at home...haa...who want to join me to gym??seeking companies now ..muahaa

shall end my own updates here :) realli so naggy...type and type non-stop..haaa

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Hey peeps again,

7th June will be Amy's birthday celebration at her house..as mentioned by her..guest (abt 40 of them including us) will arrive after 6pm..and so..as a bunch of helpful ppl..we shall meet up at 3.30pm at Kembagan Mrt control station on that day and proceed to Amy's house to help her out with the preparation and decoration etc : ) maybe we can also find some time to "play" with her..haaa..and a reminder to all ppl attending..pls bring along extra set of clothings to change wor...heard frm amy that there will be games played which may be disastrous...so be prepared :) Please tag here or tell me if u all can make it at that tym or not k..if not what time u all can make it or will be coming..please tell me...need to confirm attendance..if not later silly silly wait at Mrt there for no body..

Activities:

Friday 30th May - Me Adeline and Ah Shan will be meeting up at Marina Square at 7pm to cut hair wor..so if u are interested to meet up for hair cut or dinner..please feel free to contact us k...

Please feel free to suggest new activities k...although most of the ppl are working..but still mostly will be free aft 6pm (working hours)...so meeting up for dinner is not a prob especially at central area...so pls jia you k..more meet ups :)

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Hey Peeps again,

Brief update on our clique member's current affairs:

1) Jason - Currently serving his National Service (waiting for bar soap to pick up??)

2) Peifen - Waiting for her University to commence

3) Shulay - Working as Air Stewardess busy flying here and there (air pork??)

4) Adeling - Currently working at City Bank at Millennium Walk and will be away to Taiwan around end of June (rich girl)

5) Beeyan - Bloody hell rotting at home (p.s. please go find a job and earn some money la)

6) Seng Kwang - Working at SPH Mon - Sat (boring life) till Sept 6

7) Amy Ong - Working at the Singapore International Airport serving prestigious customers and
think she is very free..as still got time to join contest..but still spending most of her time with that banana

8) Teo Hui Shan - Just ended her car park attendant job and still duno wat to do next..although
being offered with some jobs offered..but still deciding if she should study or work...
so please feel free to give her some advice...(p.s. dun busy think of fairytale and keep smiling to yourself..if not..i think u will spend ur future in
woodbridge)

9) Jeanie Lee - Currently working in a very "good" events company..life like very busy...rotatin
only around fatty and her work...but still continue to pursue her dream of flying

10) Jasmine - Similar with jeanie..working in an events company at Harbour Front Centre...life
evolves ard work and joel..but still continue to pursue her dream of eating and
eating...soon she will be at Pakistan, her dream country on Oct..hope she find
someone good there..haaaa

11) Jan - Still working in the same company as Admin Director..eat and eat while working...
rather enjoy her work other than the office is very cold...will be away to Thailand from 10-12..still as cheerful and hiao as ever

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Such a long post

End...

SK2 (yawn..shall go slp early for tml work)

Everyone ! Today is the last of carpark attendant job for sk and myself. No need to worry about being caught, recieving suspicious glares etc. Brainless but tough job, we survived ! hahaha ~ Now Janice is going to miss our voice and continue to run her online business and watch Bang Bang Tang show on her ipod during office hours. Hahaha~ (Bao To !)

So whats my next step ? I also dunno ~ Haha

Love,
Shan:}

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

Me and Dearest Shan have decided to be in the running for the Clean & Clear-Cool and Crazy Challenge'08 just for the sake of fun so hope for all of you guys' support huh? HurhuRr!~*

All we did were to send 5 pretty crazy pictures of ours to be uploaded to the website and the pictures will be up at the gallery for garnering of all the votes!!
Soo now we are counting on you guys to help us garner the votes!! Register yourself at the website and get your friends to do too huh?

the website is at http://www.bestfriends.com.sg/gallery.aspx

So just keep voting for us, Amy and Ashley!! hurhurr!~*

LOVES,
aMy

Yeayea, AMY's birthday party coming! :)


We're going to have F-U-N fun fuN fUN FUN!


hehh


=D


yours truly,
lay

ps1: Thanks dajie for my post b'dae celebration post! lovelove.

ps2: And to SK! ORGANISE OUTINGS PLS!

ps3: 2 more post to go and we will reach our 100th post! :D

As requested by Mr Sim... I shall be putting up my working schedule for all the upcoming days!!

28th,29th May- AM Shift
30th,31st May- PM Shift

1st,2nd,7th,8th- OFF
3rd,4th,9th,10th- AM Shift
5th, 6th,11th,12th- PM Shift

note: AM Shift 5am-315pm
PM Shift 315pm-130am

Thats all folks!!

loves
amy

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MISSY SHULAY!


Our Clique's full-force outing day!! :) All the iceskating, yogurtt, dinner, after-dinner dessert...Wooo~
Seemed like ages when we are able to get all of us together just relaxing and enjoying ourselves~
Thanks to Jan for organising and being the treasurer!! Keep up the hard work :) hehh..

Anyway in future if there's any outings, plssss all give in ur best to come along!! Let's keep this friendship going on and on yeah?

As we all go old together, we can always look back on all the wonderful memories that has been created...

LOVES
AMY

while i'm waiting for my mask to dry... shall update a little!

i'm still seeing so little of you blogging here!! :( come on people...it doesnt take more than 5mins just to update a little yeah??

very happy today!! cuz i was able to get a day off this saturday so that im able to join in Shulay's birthday party!! that's because i brought forward my day off for next week.. which means i will have to work 5 days consequtively instead of 4 days! but this sacrifice is little cuz it's so hardly that we get to gather together huh? :)

and i have something to announce... after Shulay's birthday celebration.. the next will be my BIG DAY! my 21st birthday!! hoho...
and yes, im the first to grow this old can??
Soooooooo im having my party over @ my house! See... you guys can save on thinking what to do and where to hold it for my birthday. hahaa..
So i must get a big present huh??? Lol.
Think it's gonna be a little packed cuz im having so many peeps over... but im sure you guys can handle yourselves :)
So pls keep in mind this important date.. 7th June and it's a saturday too!

till then...SEEYA!!

loveS
aMy

hey guys
long time no update le wor
haaa
have been busy working for the past one week together with Shan and Janice as usual
haven been catching up and seeing lotsa ppl lately..so ya..here to update some outings...hope you guy can participate in :)

May 18 - East Coast Park outing
Time: 2pm
Participating people: Sk Shan and Jeanie

May 19 - Free to date
Time: All day long
Available: Sk and Shan

May 21 - Graduation Day / Chill Out gathering
Time: Noon onwards
Place/activities: Karaoke at Party World 4 hours follow by dinner and chill out at Island Creamery (tentative)
Participating people: Sk Shan Janice Amy
People, if you wish to join..please sms me ok..so tat we can confirm the number of ppl joining so that we can book the room asap :)
(p.s. up to date, only Jeanie BeeYan and Peifen will be going to graduation ceremony)

May 24 - Ah Lay Birthday Celebration
Time: To be annouce
Place/Activities: To be announce
Participating: Adel Sk Shan Jan and Ah Lay
People, please make yourself free...since it is our ah lay birthday and of cos we should come tgt and celebrate isnt it
(p.s. the rest i am not very sure cos i am not the one asking around)

So ya..so many upcoming activities..if you guys are interested please do contact me for details wor...the more the merrier ok..haa..keep our contacts and meet ups regular so tat our ship will roll and roll..

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sk2

helllooooo people!
ever since the start of my work ive been pretty busy i cld barely catch up with you guys!!
hmm but i see that this blog is not updated by you guys except for shulay so i'm like wondering what you guys are also busy with and how's your life and so on???
so people please blog yeah?

even though you may be busy, but still just take a lil time to update about yourself so that we dont drift away like slowly.. and slowly without even realising it! =b

as you all might already know ive started on job training and im mostly at T2 now.
not able to go into the transit area as my pass is not done yet.
and so far the job has been pretty fine...
the customers are mostly fine but it's just that some of your working colleagues can be damn arrogant and shitty~
ive seen them just purposely pick on you for this and that...
it's as though they have no life and just wan to make your life difficult.
And they pull such a long black face, you wouldnt feel like going near them. -_-"

but so far.. i haven met with any nasty incidents with any of them cuz the ones ive met are pretty nice and willing to teach me.
and i've also be warned about those "untouchables" so i will be clever and keep a lookout for them so that i wont step on their poor toes. haha.

morning shift been pretty tiring cuz imagine working at 5am in the morning.. good thing is you get to go home in the afternoon.
now im working like freaking 10hrs a day.. so it's a killer on the feet.
however heard that starting june they will change the schedule to 8hrs a day..
in case they scare all of us away as they have did to so many others previous trainees.
so right now im still surviving well in this job with no complaints!

only bad thing is i'll be working for this coming PH with no OFF because it is in my schedule. AND possibly i might not make it for shulay's celebration because it is on a saturday where i'll be working Night shift. which means im working 315pm to 130pm...
and im hoping someone will be kind enough to change shift with me cuz if not.. there's really no way i'll be able to meet up with you guys and catch up with all the missing times!

a thing to ask which is...
Will we still be meeting up on Graduation Day???

meanwhile ive still been constantly updating my own blog.. so check it out! :)

Loves & misses!
Amy

Something to announce! TADA! i've set up a blog at livejournal. My personal space. HAA. So come and share my life! :)

http://shugirl-lay.livejournal.com/


Welcome.. welcome!

lay

wah.. must create a Hoo-haa den you guys will start bloggin issit?? -_-"

no matter what it is...pls continue your spirits of blogging people.
it's nice to know how each and everyone of us feel towards a certain issue and we can also discuss it openly :)

like it's been said. this blog is for all of us to share all the pains and joys.
even though we are so far apart in distance, this is the place to bring us all back together!
everyone has their own space.. own life.. own plans...
but i guess somehow or rather we still share the same beliefs and aims too.

p/s: wld love to join u shan.. haha.. too bad i cant~

loves,
aMy

Whoa whoa Whoa ~ Its hot in here !!!

My POV ~ Only a GOOD FRIEND will tell you things that are unpleasant to the ears but are constructive most of the time. However, 家家有本难念的经. Each of us have our own struggles and stories to tell, of which we will also have our own way of tackling and venting these issues.

Hmmmm well tone might sound harsh over words and cyberspace. I am sure we all meant well for each other lar.

Soooo peeps ~ chill out okie ! Phuture coming fri, anyone ? LOL ~ Ok i know its cold but then that place is an avenue for me to vent my frustrations :] Just a passing phase *wink*

][:Shan:][

OMG -_-" like how the hell did this sense of tense-ness and awkward-ness came into this blog?
and looks like im the last one to keep update on this cuz apparently i am kept in the dark of all the unhappiness and all ever since i wrote the last post.

all these are blown out of proportion!!

first of all, wanna apologize for all the misunderstanding!
apparently i didnt expect such a big reaction from Sk because i wasn't directing at you and pinpointing all your wrongs!
what Shulay has said basically is what i really meant so i think you seriously misunderstood what i've said.


i'm not saying that you cannot voice out all your complains...
and it's not that im not concerned. (in the first place, i wouldnt even comment on anything if im not the least concerned!)
all i'm saying is what are the things that you could have done to reduce all your stress and frustrations...
im not saying you are wrong in this way or that way.

i dont agree that if i have problems, i always have nana to run to.
what if the problems have to do with nana?
I always go to you guys and talk about it. that's what friends are for right?
which is why when you voice out all your opinions, we are here to tell you what we think about it.
having known each other for so long le,
i don't say fanciful words just to please the others. i just say what i really feel no matter whether others will think it's right or wrong.

hmm so don't be so quick to defend yourself when im not even trying to critisize you or pinpoint your wrongs cuz i'm not in the position to do so too.
like you say, you are you. i am myself.
we are all different.
so was just hoping that you will take my thinkings into consideration and thought.
that was all i meant. :)

see, now Nana even scolding me for being so straightforward! haha. but nvm. now that i know my words wont sound pleasant to your eyes, i shant say anything more le.

chill peeps!

loves,
aMy

JAN'S POST:

I don't find it anywhere near wrong having to voice out one's complaints at one's own blog.
Many a times people have their own ups and downs in life.
Having no one comfortable to turn to, it does helps a lot to vent those pent-up frustrations in a blog.
Yet, a good friend has to not understand these distressed feelings, and ranted out her comments. It might be out of goodwill but that's only to her own stand. That is, these are done without been thoughtful for your little depressed friend here.

On the other hand, those words might stand true to an extend. However, they just ain't said in a rightful tone to be taken in as good advice, and definitely not at the right moment though.
So my dear mummy, i guess you might probably not be in a great mood at the time you read SK's post. Not saying that you're in fault, but maybe you have your own troubles that are yet to be voiced out as well.

SK, things might get tough on your side. Nevertheless, i believe you are definitely mature enough to handle them. We can only be your pillar of support when you need comfort, or some space to relax and have fun.
Cheers, things will get better, I'm sure. :))

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Digressing...

Shan's Qns
Having a child bears the love emblem between a couple.
Should a break-up happens, I wouldn't wish to keep the child.
With the thought of harming an innocent life kept in mind, the decision remains strong still.

If I have to bear the child for the sake of keeping my guy by my side, I will only feel sorry for myself. For sure, i believe i deserve someone better to love and dote me. Thus, why should i go for someone who no longer loves me, but stays by my side for the child's sake. It's a kind of "pity" love that i'll never wish to have. I'll rather bear the pain of heartaches and give myself the right treatment.

Keeping the child doesn't necessary meant the goodwill of the child. Often, people feel that one shouldn't harm innocent lives through abortion. However, have anyone think or feel for those children? How will they feel having to grow up in a single-parent family? The cruel teases and bad childhood that they'll have to endure through. Do you think those kids who are their peers will think rationally enough to be sensitive towards your kid's feelings? I doubt that. Imagine growing up in an environment whereby you're ostracised by your peers.

Hence, i strongly don't believe in keeping the child if it's still early to decide.

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PF's Strong Self
Firstly, a pat on your back.
I can almost understand those agony you've been through.
I'm glad you walk out of that bad past of yours, and still able to look back upon those down moments and talked about it. It just shows you're able to face up to your problems.
You've been strong, my dear. :))

hey ppl, chill out okay. To sk, dun misunderstood.. im sure amy mean no harm. she's just voicing out her honest thoughts. that's wad good friends are for right? to tell their friends their faults so they will be able to improve on it. many times human tend to overlook their fault, refusing to hear bad things but only the good. I admit even i myself are one of those ppl. I mean who would like to hear bad things about themselves and for me, i'm afraid to hear the negavtive comments about myself in the past but now im trying to and willingly to learn more bad sides about me so i can improve on :) (but i sort of know my negatives and still i dun mind if u guys blog and tell me about my negatives)

And for sk im not trying to say ur wrong or wad. I noe u mean no harm in your previous entry. and yes perhaps we've misunderstood u but maybe in your previous post, u should instead thank amy for her comments and explain in a better tone that u've actually tried and its only that we did not see your efforts. i'm sure in this way it would not result in any unnecessary conflicts or wad. To me i'll say that amy is brave to say those words. She values all our friendship more than anything else (esp you) and believe that our friendships are strong. That's y she's not afraid to voice it out. So sk, dun get it wrong okay - she's trying to help u and so are we :) We are want you to be a positive-thinking boy!

SK its okay to complain and vent it out sometimes but too often is unhealthy. Hmm.. ur presence is very impt in our clique and u never fail to bring smiles to our clique. Im saying from the bottom of my heart. So stay cheerful and humourous as always, our "kai xin guo" =D tomorrow will be a better day! Stay positive from this moment on!

ps: as for shan question, i really have no definite ans. its either to keep and raise the child singlehandedly or to keep and give the child to other couples who wanted children but were unable to.

To peifen: i din noe u have such a story behind and im really proud of u! i'm glad that u shared your story with us and its really motivating :)

lay

your words are simply too harsh for me
nber thght a close fren will say such harsh words to me
ever did you ask abt the full story before u start posting here and using every word to shoot down dead at me
ever did you show a sense of concern for me, not a single sms received

i am here to defend myself
i am here to clear myself

everyone characteristics are diff
and ya you are strong and you have your own way of thinking and you follow your thinking
while i am different
i thinks negative and i can say i am weak at heart
and you think for yourself
if you have any problem, you will have nana beside you to share with
what about me, do i have someone there for me to tok to face to face
i know i have u all
but look at it
you all have your own problem, have your own companion and own stuff to handle
and most imptly, we normally dun talk heart to heart with anyone in the clique and not all in the clique are close with each other
its oni when gossip starts to spread and then we will be concern
but i did share with jan and adel abt this matter thou, but how much can i sae on msn and so i decided to blog it out yest

i have my down time too
i simply just wanted to vent my anger and sae what i want to sae and complain it on my blog
am i wrong to do that?

and how do u noe i did not take action for what i complain since you did not even ask??

do u know i wash my own clothes too
do u know i pack my wardrobe and clothes but everytime after i pack my father will destroy it
do u know that i threw away lots of old unwanted clothes
do u know that i tried to clear all the mess but to no success
i tried
and i failed
thats why i write it down on my blog

and do you ever know the feeling when you come to home and what you look at is quarrels follow by quarrels
its not peaceful at all
my family are different from yours
you think i can simply ignore and dun care abt all the quarrels?
yes i cant do anyting to that
but i cant take it
i nid somewhere for me to write out what i feel

i noe u dun mean bad
i noe u just want me to wake up
i noe u mean good

and still its me
i just cant take it when i see the posting you made
a sense of sadness, dissapointment and anger rose

dont mean to fight back or wanting to say that you are wrong
dont mean for a quarrel

just wanted to defend myself

just hope things wont turn out even worse

sk2

well, after reading amy's post below and sk's posts at his blog, i would like to share this mini story of mine that happened some time ago...

i still remember that ppl would ask why i took Os in a priv sch, how come i retain sec 3, whenever new friends ask me how come i'm like one year older (especially during poly orientation etc.)
the reason is, i had a time, or a phase where i was really down, and to think back, i seriously think i was suffering from depression. but whatever triggered that in the past; come to think of it now, they're all but small matters, and they make me a stronger person and seen another perspective.

the story goes is, during my sec 3 yr at crescent, i wasn't doing well, firstly i did not get in the class i wanted, secondly, i feel that i don't have any friends at all, like close friends or good friends i can talk to. and u know how life likes to rub salt on ur wound, i landed in hospital due to pneumonia in my lung. my parents at that time was not very supportive, and i dun really talk to them. coz it just feels that they aren't listening, and so i stopped trying to communicate. furthermore, being a perfectionist, i feel that i was failing in life; i wasn't doing well in school, and my dad just had a way to make me feel guilty of the medical bills i choked up during my hospital stay.

and so, i began to try to escape from reality. i dun go sch regularly like i should, i will just tell my mum that i'm sick and take mc. it began a habit, and depression kicked in. in the end, i stopped going to sch altogether. i had symptoms like having suicidal thoughts, feeling like crying all the time, and all those negative thoughts that u can imagine. without proper help, my illness just worsen further.
anyway to cut it short, i simply stayed at home and 'rotted' for about a yr plus? i can't remember how i walk out of it though, but i'm glad that i did. so, i realised i nid to put my life back together after a yr of rotting and enrol to YMCA , sit for Os as a private candidate, and my life kinda returned 'normal' again.

i seldom share this story with people, coz i simply dun want to talk about it and dun want to be reminded of it. but still, i'm thankful that after this phase, i became a stronger person, and i vowed never to let myself dwell in that 'bottomless pit' again.


so my dear friends out there, be strong, i know it's hard to stay positive being stuck in a rut. but trust me, u guys are strong, and we can all do it. =)
and to sum up amy's and my words, escape is not the solution.

pF.

no offence for saying this but seriously i think Sk you should get a grip of yourself!
if you have already given up on yourself, what more about others?

so what if your life is in a mess.. so what if your cupboard is in a mess.. your family is in a mess..
like so what??
all the complaints wont get you anywhere isnt it?
just take a deep breathe... and pick up the mess!

since u say your room is in a mess. den u should start clearing up!
all the clothes dat you haven been wearing just chuck them away la!
since your father dont washes your clothes properly, den wash them yourself lor.
if they wan to quarrel.. den let them be. (wat can you do right?)

since you are financially tight...
you should start prioritising on what you are spending!
if you cant afford den don't buy!
if you are wanting something badly, den start saving and less spendings.

you can go on and on with your complaints but all these shit will remain where it is.
if you think negative, everything else will also appear negative.

how you wan to lead your life...how you wan to see your life..
is up to you yourself.

aMy

wow.. glad to see beeyan starting her posts too!!
taiwan's fun! don't forget to buy things back for us! lol.

anyway i do agree with what shulay has said..
in life, there's times where you will reach the lowest peak of it but before you know it, something good comes along with it...
that is why i always believed that one must stay positive no matter what happens.
so what if nothing is becoming what you expect? You'll never know how bad a thing may eventually turn out to be good afterall!
in life, we gain some. we lose some.
but we won't get to lose everything at one time.

without love, there's still friendships.
without money, there's still kinships.
without anything in the world, you still have you.

that's why it is true that in whatever phase you are in your life, you'll have to cherish what you are having right now at that moment...
because you'll never know just when things will start to change.

anyway, like you, im sure everyone of us have been thru emotional struggles as well!
which one of us haven been through a failed relationship?
you see..
even though we may have love luck tdy, it doesnt mean tmr we will have it as well.
there are good times and bad times..
so what you have failed in the past?
just take it as a learning experience and move on along...because we always end up meeting the wrong ones before we know who is the right one.
that's why im encouraging those who doesnt have the luck right now to keep on trying.
don't give up!

it's not about how many.. or how long in a relationship you are in.
but whether you've been happy in this relationship... whether you will go on to cherish all the memories that you've been thru.
as long as you're happy, nothing else matters!

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if i'm in shan's position...
i would say abort the child no matter how cruel this may sound.
but it is even more cruel for the child to be born in this world without a happy and complete family.
how will it be like to look at your child and have it remind you of all the unhappy past?

if he doesnt love you or vice versa.
i don't see the point why one should continue with the relationship.
you are the one who has the control in your life.

so it takes just one decision to decide whether you'll be happy or not.
so why not chose the decision that will make yourself happy?

like i say, don't make your own life miserable.
you have the control to it.
be happy!!

p/s guys: don't be scared to voice out all your feelings and unhappiness yeah?
that's what this blog is for!

loves
aMy

well to ans shan's question, if it happens to me, i won't get back wif him together coz of the child, bcoz if the child grows up in a family but both parents are always giving each other the cold shoulder, how healthy can it gets? though it seems like a complete family on the outside. i guess perhaps i'll just be a single mum and raise him/her up, not restricting his/her contact wif the dad. like they can still go out, and perhaps the 3 of us can spend some time together, but not marriage.
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my 2 cents. =)

is this now the emo season? i've been down lately too. oh well.
guess we all nid some choco? =)

the-one-who-forgot-to-sign-off,
pF. =p

I was thinking WHAT IF i am pregrant with derek's child after we broke up. Will i rather have a husband(derek) that loves the child but not me or the child to grow up single parent. I will choose option 1. I want my child to grow up in a healtier family. Ok lar not say that without the husband loving me is very healthy but then at least better than the child without a father.

What about you guys ? What if you are pregant with a child, either the father doesn't love you or you dun really love the father ?

Love
Shan

im not trying to emo but this thot have been my mind recently.

its always when we are at the lowest peak of our life and then something good comes along. agree?

i believe that god is fair. in life, some found love but lost their friends, some have everything but not family or some lost love but found their career. some might have lost their love but eventually they move on and found a better one. thou eventually wad god had given us might not be wad we want but i strongly believe that we should take and thank god :) im fortunate to be pampered by god. He gave me a alot of very good friends at every phase of my life and i really cherish them.


ps: i might look good on the outside but actually i've been thru alot of emotional struggle as well. i don't have love luck, not in the past, now or future.


lay