your words are simply too harsh for me
nber thght a close fren will say such harsh words to me
ever did you ask abt the full story before u start posting here and using every word to shoot down dead at me
ever did you show a sense of concern for me, not a single sms received

i am here to defend myself
i am here to clear myself

everyone characteristics are diff
and ya you are strong and you have your own way of thinking and you follow your thinking
while i am different
i thinks negative and i can say i am weak at heart
and you think for yourself
if you have any problem, you will have nana beside you to share with
what about me, do i have someone there for me to tok to face to face
i know i have u all
but look at it
you all have your own problem, have your own companion and own stuff to handle
and most imptly, we normally dun talk heart to heart with anyone in the clique and not all in the clique are close with each other
its oni when gossip starts to spread and then we will be concern
but i did share with jan and adel abt this matter thou, but how much can i sae on msn and so i decided to blog it out yest

i have my down time too
i simply just wanted to vent my anger and sae what i want to sae and complain it on my blog
am i wrong to do that?

and how do u noe i did not take action for what i complain since you did not even ask??

do u know i wash my own clothes too
do u know i pack my wardrobe and clothes but everytime after i pack my father will destroy it
do u know that i threw away lots of old unwanted clothes
do u know that i tried to clear all the mess but to no success
i tried
and i failed
thats why i write it down on my blog

and do you ever know the feeling when you come to home and what you look at is quarrels follow by quarrels
its not peaceful at all
my family are different from yours
you think i can simply ignore and dun care abt all the quarrels?
yes i cant do anyting to that
but i cant take it
i nid somewhere for me to write out what i feel

i noe u dun mean bad
i noe u just want me to wake up
i noe u mean good

and still its me
i just cant take it when i see the posting you made
a sense of sadness, dissapointment and anger rose

dont mean to fight back or wanting to say that you are wrong
dont mean for a quarrel

just wanted to defend myself

just hope things wont turn out even worse

sk2