hello ppl~
sorry that i've seem to disappear from gatherings and outings
just that this not my year =p

have gotten into major trouble with my new boss recently
and he has been making me fume with his idiotic decisions

just to sum it short,
my boss hates me and the feeling's mutual~
he basically treats me like an idiot now and sort of "demote" me...
very upset & pissed at him still
now, i don't know if I can really last until Jul/Aug before I resign
must cheer me on kays =p
so that I can stay on longer and make his life hell~

anyway...
i'm sending my grandma to the nursing home tomorrow
want to cry but I can't...
coz I know my parents would be even more upset & worried...
my mum can't cope alone
with all of us at work or at school
and her own health isn't that good

my grandma has become quite senile over the past few months
and last week, I had to sent her to the hospi
It was the first time since four years ago when she has agreed to seeing a doc.
It broke my heart to see her so lifeless
so unlike her usual self...

over the past 2 days,
I came home to find out that she has fallen and my brothers didn't have enough strength
to carry her up
my mum had to call people to come over to my place to help out...
and both my uncles just couldn't be bother about what happening to my grandma
sometimes, I wish I could just shout at them...
how can they be so selfish towards their own mother?
I'm really so angry at them
do you think I'll get strike by thunder if I give in to my urges to throttle them?

anyway,
I'm just complaining =p
will be all right
if not for myself, for my family then
coz they need someone to help make decisions and be strong
although I have to admit that I'm a little afraid deep down =)
pass me some strength to carry on okie =p

p/s:
please pardon me if I rejected your offers to go out and chill kays =p

p/p/s:
sk, don't blacklist me hor! I'm not rejecting you on purpose la =p